How to Make Paper Roses..with Love :)

she's one of the reason why i still know how to fight for myself :)
after four years of not seeing each other, everything is still the same..
she's still the Irish Joy Martos that i've met 7years ago..
she still makes me laugh..she still knows what makes my day..
and i still love her..more than she ever knew :)

things will never get better without her presence..

things get better because of her humor and understanding
things will be seen in different ways because of how she sees it,
and things will never be the same again without her by my side :)

peculiar..

i'm having this peculiar feeling..
i don't know if it is just me,,
or if there is something that's been going on,
that i'm really not aware of..

maybe it's because of the homily?
maybe it's because of the books i'm reading?
maybe it's because of the things that i miss of doing?
or maybe i'm just looking for something?
or should i say..
maybe i'm looking and wanting some more?

human has never been contented..
wanting more is the absence of contentment in life..
i know it's too bad to ask for more..
but what if i just can't seek my true happiness right now?
or what if my happiness will never be found
in the things that i'm doing right now?

but things seem to flow just right, as of now..
there must be a more challenging task waiting for me
at my work..better for me to wait for it :)